Echoes of Silence

In quiet moments, whispers weigh heavy as stone,

A mother's love, though silenced, still makes its throne.

Her absence echoes, a deafening hush,

A testament of sacrifices, forever a gentle rush.

With hands that healed and a heart that cared,

She tried and  mended shattered dreams,soothed souls impaired.

Her words, were soothing balm to weary hearts,

A refuge of empathy, where love would never part.

Though she whispered little of her own pain,

Her selflessness shone bright, like a love that would remain.

In her silence, her legacy resounds,

Love that still sustains, forever bound.

In memories of kindness, her voice is clear,

Whisper of love,  her heartfelt choice, always near.

Though she's has gone her impact stays,

That silence that speaks louder, in endless ways.

Her love remains, a guiding light,

Illuminating paths, through darkest night.

In my hearts, her love will forever be,

Silence that speaks volumes, of empathy.

Your Daughter said, indeed Silence speaks louder than words.

Remembering my Beloved mum on Mother's Day

My dearest Mom, so kind and true,

My heart is heavy, I miss you so much too.

On this Mother's Day, I wish you were here,

To share the love and joy that always brought cheer.

You were caring, always by my side,

Your love and comfort, I could never hide.

You showed me how to be a better man,

And motivated me to do all that I can.

Your laughter was infectious, your jokes so funny,

You always found a way to brighten up my day, even when it was gloomy.

Your hugs and kisses, so warm and tight,

I always knew everything was going to be all right.

You were a woman of faith, your prayers so pure,

You taught me to trust in God, and His Word to endure.

Your love for Jesus shone bright in your heart,

And now, you're with Him, never again to depart.

Though I cannot see you, I feel you near,

Your love is always with me, so crystal clear.

I'll always cherish the memories we shared,

And know that you're always in my heart, forever cared.

So here's to you, my beautiful Mom,

May you rest in peace, in God's loving arms.

Thank you for being the best Mom anyone could ask for,

I love you now and forevermore.

Jayshuwa

Natural Reality

 

The seeds grew into trees

Drops of water made the seas

As days and nights did pass

The soil grew soft grass

April rain showers

Brought forth May flowers

The sun and moon dance through the skies in harmony 

While the clouds and stars create the melody

The cycle of the seasons

The answers to questions 

The stories of the universe 

Are far and diverse

Everyone has a different story to tell 

To whisper or to yell

But it's all a beautiful tale 

That will never spare any detail

We all see things differently 

But more recently 

We have different views on how we came to be

But we fail to see

It never mattered 

It never will matter 

Because we all die someday

And buried six feet under a grave 

So let us not focus on how we came to be

But why we came to be

We shouldn't focus on each other’s faults and mistakes 

Rather, the details of what makes us

Different and unique from another

All of us are different from the other

But no matter how we live 

We don't live forever.

Jayshuwa

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Hope

When all else fails,

We hold on to hope

Trusting the source

Knowing we are not alone in the universe

The universe is watching

It's listening to our silent thoughts

We are seen, we are heard

We might be alone, but we are never alone

So breathe

Hold on to hope

It doesn't get any easier,

But tomorrow will be better with hope on our side

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I'M FINE

I’m fine. This is one of the biggest lies ever. Many people say they are okay, but the truth is they are not. It is so easy to pretend and make others believe that you are perfectly fine but deep down, you're hurting. The truth is, the sadness is killing you inside and what’s worse is that it's killing you slowly. It weakens our entire system and it reflects through our eyes. We can’t deny the fact that no matter how hard we keep the sadness within ourselves it can always be recognized by those who pay attention, those who look directly into our eyes, as through the eyes, we can determine if a person is truly happy or not. But sometimes it's better to tell them you’re okay than to explain the reason why you're sad.

➣ Jayshuwa's World

Once a Friend, Now a Stranger

You are my confidant

And I am your constant

You are my cheerer

And I am your supporter

We are inseparable

We make things able

We laugh all day

We cry all night

Until one day

I thought it was just a play

You're no longer my confidant

And I'm no longer your constant

It happened so quick

We're both not prepared

We cannot stand being together

Looking away from each other

I wonder what went wrong

Why it was so easy for you to let go

Why didn't you hold on?

Why can't you tell me?

We used to be each others ally

But why did we become strangers so quickly?

Is it our choice?

Or is it directly Gods plan?

Ruin

Take heed lest you fall into the tempting hands of ruin she sighs, gives a shrilling cry of longing and abuse Drawn to her promised twists you seek the need that she can give you smile, drunk in lust dreaming that you have won Trapped in her piercing warmth you huff and puff to wrench free a victory, we rejoice when you do but pieces of you stay, bleeding and torn Lost in the strength of spirits and wines you yearn and yearn to feel divine sad mournful pieces come away as you welcome her embrace, yet again.

Anxiety

I feel like I am not real

I cannot heal

I try to hold everything back

But all the things I lack

Add to the weight on my chest 

Making me unable to rest

So I cannot breathe while I cry

How am I even getting by?

I lie in bed for hours before I can rest peacefully

How can I change me

To make myself better

Before I write my last letter? 

I crack under the pressure until I break

Am I even awake? 

Everything feels like a bad dream 

But I cannot wake up and scream 

I'm so afraid of me

I can't see clearly 

I can barely stand 

Because I don't like who I am

I don't know why I'm unable to change 

It seems so strange 

Everyone else can change. 

So why do I stay the same?

Inspiration comes when you not looking

I gave away my curiosity; trusted your stick was leading me right.
Void of any sense of will or desire.
My every thought was the smallest measure of time;
always hours behind reality.
Escalators were taking me to last floor of my deepest thoughts i guess.
But i gave away control, didn't I?
What did i expect to find?
Figured if i can't stand in the truth of faith, i drift in the error of facts.
So I quit dressing myself ever since you showed me the right pants.
With a frozen account, I sure can't shop around.
Regardless! I'm willing to stay out of fashion on your account.

I can't imagine how much weight I lost just by jumping into conclusions;
Only to discover what l thought were prerequisites were just rewards.
Why was I busy hammering when I didn't know the shape you had designed?
You were always there making sure the right heaven match-sticks.
So I will trust you for a spark no matter how long it takes for a burn.
For now let the thought of tomorrow's heat melt the little ice that remains between you and me.
And when I'm out of inspiration; I will just stop looking.
The only difference is this time you are my eyes;
that's why I'm confident of the walk

_Jayshuwa_

Le chaos

For as long as I can remember, 

I never knew how to handle my emotions

Whenever things didnt work my way, 

I've always been the first to push the blame

Because i've never seen my inner-self through a mirror

Reflecting a despicable person

Not quite like the yellow, cylindrical minions from "Despicable Me"

I wasn't cute, able to sing nor any of their positive traits

And despite all that,

I was able to feel your genuine love

I knew we wouldn't last forever

And despite priming myself for this day

It breaks my heart still,

Thinking how I used to be yours

But now it all just seems so long ago

Like humans' fueled fascination over Lost Atlantis

I still recall that day,

You left me with an open door

Yet I still feel 

Imprisoned with no key to escape

The all-consuming depths of my aloneness

Is now my only company

As I wait solemnly for the day

I hear from you again

And I hope,

Maybe one day, we'll be better versions

Maybe one day I will be able to look at you, 

Without feeling pain

Maybe one day you'll see my worth

Maybe one day you'll see i've always been there for you

But until then,

I am your mess and you are my chaos!

VOICES OF A CONFUSED HEART.

The pain never get out of sight,

They left but I never get it right,

Souls I've hurt keep me up awake at night,

God give me the strength hold on tight,

For you know where the fire in my soul ignite,

Wish unconditional love show me the light.

The heart is to pump my blood,

But why at time doest it hurt?

Wish I could do without one,

So that no organ in me could hurt this bad.

 

This mind that fails me,

Melancholic pasts it let me see,

No music that make me sing,

For in my past are bee stings,

Joy to my soul it doesn't bring.

Lovers i hurt at night keep me awake,

Visuals of the same mistakes,

In the dark flashbacks like panic attacks,

For in my souls buried emotions erupts,

Their Ghosts that force me to dance,

To the music of this sad past.

Appologies to my self,

Ignorance and unapologetic pretense,

Even when to them I no longer make sense,

Adorable Memories that become intense,

For this affection I remain useless,

No wages for the man that offer all his energies,

Energy to care repeat less.

In me bares no hate,

Happy in me you could make,

Ever in my heart smiles u bake,

But now my soul bares an empty cake,

The emotions keep my heart at stake,

If ever back forever in my heart you will stay.

This the voices of a confused heart,

Perfect painting of a scribbled art,

The masterpiece that we start,

True that tuff times never last,

Genuine love made of trust,

Now shaken at it delicate part.

Wish I could complete this,

But If this your end I'll leave my readers in suspense,

Will always wait in silence,

For ur Adorable heart so stainless,

For ur happiness is my interest,

I could let you go painless,

I'll always watch out for you my little princess,

Your return I will wait in patience.

Man is not alone

If only we can admit it as humans that we are like candles whose light will never see beneath itself despite its beauty in the dark. So we should know that no matter the carelessness we may adopt and carefulness we may lace, our errors will never be lucid to our ears nor will they be heard to our sights. As the warning of others around us will always be the torch to tread our darkest path and also our rod to part our flooded passages.

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© Jayshuwa

© Jayshuwa

Quote of the day

Life is like the sunrise, 

Each day gives you a new hope and desire, 

May this day you shine so bright,

May you reach more higher, 

Keep smiling on this day, 

Have a wonderful day, 

Good day!

Quote of the Day

If no one told you this today,

you’re so awesome, 

beautiful and deserve everything

 this galaxy can give you.

They said it get worse

before it gets better.

But sometimes,

it can get more worse without getting any better.

It will get better.

The story will change.

Quote of the Day

                      ☯️🧘♎🧘☯️

Just because we forgive someone it doesn't mean what they did was okay. It just means we have empowered ourselves to move on from it.

Jayshuwa©

Conflicted

[The Moon]

You see at this point my heart hurts, things are far worse than I could ever imagine

Trying to figure out what you and I are worth, why does it always feel like we are cursed

I mean the wounds are too deep to have these scars nursed

To bring care, I think of where we started, in the air where Mars lurks

I searched in the dark parts of the universe, met you in-between the stars first

Found my moon, just before my mind bared a guard burst

My last art work marked the beautiful words that carved purpose

Tried to show you, you aren't worthless

Instead, are worth it

Hoping to reveal to those whats behind curtains

A fine purchase, with a divine surface, the kind version, the one thing that left my mind wordless

[The Downfall]

Though I fell from the sky, overwhelming stressed out

Tried my best to block the mess out, kept being pressed down

My best friend left town, I was thinking less now, then half of me just checked out

Not accepting I was a depressed clown

I kept investing in what I could deem the best route

And still I went down, further beyond just wet clouds

Even the moon could not see me as I went south

And still it reached out, hoping to redirect doubt

But I had fallen with my bent crown

In a distress pout, or at the place my chest drowned

I no longer possessed clout, was no longer a blessed sprout

I had nothing to impress the moon, just burnt respect and whatever was left now

I was out of the moonlight, dreaming of eternal rest now

So I confess, to the moon from which I was obsessed about

I failed to address my progress when I wasn't giving my best out

[Us]

Because my mind was confined, not just by the fine lines drawn to divide us

The lack of prime time inside us showed why we defined crime and lust

Plus we defied our trust, denied our plus one, and became a bind of fuss

I search of whats right and just, in hopes to rewind of when mine was cusp

I aligned my must, grew my vine of luck and climbed until I saw my divine was plush

And these rhymes I brush, like paint, surely do try to bring light to whats

Been on my mind, from dusk to dawn, every line drawn to find whats wrong

Perfectly pictured in my palms, our world written like bygones

And still everyday I'm reminded that this is lifelong

No reason to race through a marathon, we got to make a decision before we act on

Something restrictive, and so I blame the sickness that in both of us existed

For this wicked, twisted, unpredicted situation that hath stricken

Because I want you to feed my addiction, bring my prescription, to relieve the pain inflicted

But I'm so conflicted, I want to be golden when you're the ticket

Its just we both have to be committed to being better than whats depicted

For my love is unrestricted, and if I didn't believe in you I wouldn't have picked you to be more than my statistic.

Afraid

As plain as I can say this,I'm afraid
Afraid of what is to come and to be made
I'm a man controlled by many fears
For they are the kind that reduce men to tears

I fear of being lost and hopeless
For I fear losing someone with much closeness
I fear of becoming isolated
For with no society my mind would be violated

I fear what lies in the dark
But only because darkness would tear me apart
I fear the loss of family
For being alone lies no hope for my sanity

I fear of not being a good brother
Because I fear for the soul of our mother
I fear my family being broken
Nothing left but a single token

I fear the coming chaos
For society seems blind at their loss
Most of all I fear losing my father
Afraid he will become my only martyr

It is alright to be afraid,it means we're human
Fear allows us to face it to continue our blooming
For when the day is said and done
We all can turn to watch the setting sun

Jayshuwa 

Glimpse of Hope

A glimpse of hope shines through today.
Maybe I will be okay.
I don't expect the greatest leap.
But hope seems something I can keep.
It's now been almost five long years...
of devastating challenges, battles, and tears.
Maybe now I will circle around...
find what was lost can now be found!
just seems a little less impossible today,
to achieve the dreams for which I humbly pray...
Good Night

Toxic to my heart

I thought i was ready to love another girl, but kissing her just didnt feel right.
She was beautiful, but she's not you, I just realized that tonight.
When will i get you out of my head, when will i stop bringing your memories to bed.
I really tried to move on, without you.
When my lips touched hers, i felt like i was being untrue.
But we broke up last year, so why does your memories still appear?

When I saw you down the street the other day.
My lips moved but i didn't know what to say.
Your still beautiful, but your toxic to my heart.
You will keep hurting me until you tear me apart.
What did i do to deserve this kind of love.
I think you broke my heart enough.

The other girl still talks to me, but for some reason i dont feel like i am free.
Your memories keep taunting me.
The other girl has a kind heart, not like yours that tore me apart.
She's been broken before, she knows what it feels like to be hurt.
She's kind, she's friendly, I know she likes me because she flirts.
But i won't go with her unless i get you out of my mind.
I'm not gonna be like you, unkind.
I've got to get you out of my mind.