I feel like I am not real
I cannot heal
I try to hold everything back
But all the things I lack
Add to the weight on my chest
Making me unable to rest
So I cannot breathe while I cry
How am I even getting by?
I lie in bed for hours before I can rest peacefully
How can I change me
To make myself better
Before I write my last letter?
I crack under the pressure until I break
Am I even awake?
Everything feels like a bad dream
But I cannot wake up and scream
I'm so afraid of me
I can't see clearly
I can barely stand
Because I don't like who I am
I don't know why I'm unable to change
It seems so strange
Everyone else can change.
So why do I stay the same?