Once a Friend, Now a Stranger

You are my confidant

And I am your constant

You are my cheerer

And I am your supporter

We are inseparable

We make things able

We laugh all day

We cry all night

Until one day

I thought it was just a play

You're no longer my confidant

And I'm no longer your constant

It happened so quick

We're both not prepared

We cannot stand being together

Looking away from each other

I wonder what went wrong

Why it was so easy for you to let go

Why didn't you hold on?

Why can't you tell me?

We used to be each others ally

But why did we become strangers so quickly?

Is it our choice?

Or is it directly Gods plan?

Le chaos

For as long as I can remember, 

I never knew how to handle my emotions

Whenever things didnt work my way, 

I've always been the first to push the blame

Because i've never seen my inner-self through a mirror

Reflecting a despicable person

Not quite like the yellow, cylindrical minions from "Despicable Me"

I wasn't cute, able to sing nor any of their positive traits

And despite all that,

I was able to feel your genuine love

I knew we wouldn't last forever

And despite priming myself for this day

It breaks my heart still,

Thinking how I used to be yours

But now it all just seems so long ago

Like humans' fueled fascination over Lost Atlantis

I still recall that day,

You left me with an open door

Yet I still feel 

Imprisoned with no key to escape

The all-consuming depths of my aloneness

Is now my only company

As I wait solemnly for the day

I hear from you again

And I hope,

Maybe one day, we'll be better versions

Maybe one day I will be able to look at you, 

Without feeling pain

Maybe one day you'll see my worth

Maybe one day you'll see i've always been there for you

But until then,

I am your mess and you are my chaos!

VOICES OF A CONFUSED HEART.

The pain never get out of sight,

They left but I never get it right,

Souls I've hurt keep me up awake at night,

God give me the strength hold on tight,

For you know where the fire in my soul ignite,

Wish unconditional love show me the light.

The heart is to pump my blood,

But why at time doest it hurt?

Wish I could do without one,

So that no organ in me could hurt this bad.

 

This mind that fails me,

Melancholic pasts it let me see,

No music that make me sing,

For in my past are bee stings,

Joy to my soul it doesn't bring.

Lovers i hurt at night keep me awake,

Visuals of the same mistakes,

In the dark flashbacks like panic attacks,

For in my souls buried emotions erupts,

Their Ghosts that force me to dance,

To the music of this sad past.

Appologies to my self,

Ignorance and unapologetic pretense,

Even when to them I no longer make sense,

Adorable Memories that become intense,

For this affection I remain useless,

No wages for the man that offer all his energies,

Energy to care repeat less.

In me bares no hate,

Happy in me you could make,

Ever in my heart smiles u bake,

But now my soul bares an empty cake,

The emotions keep my heart at stake,

If ever back forever in my heart you will stay.

This the voices of a confused heart,

Perfect painting of a scribbled art,

The masterpiece that we start,

True that tuff times never last,

Genuine love made of trust,

Now shaken at it delicate part.

Wish I could complete this,

But If this your end I'll leave my readers in suspense,

Will always wait in silence,

For ur Adorable heart so stainless,

For ur happiness is my interest,

I could let you go painless,

I'll always watch out for you my little princess,

Your return I will wait in patience.

Conflicted

[The Moon]

You see at this point my heart hurts, things are far worse than I could ever imagine

Trying to figure out what you and I are worth, why does it always feel like we are cursed

I mean the wounds are too deep to have these scars nursed

To bring care, I think of where we started, in the air where Mars lurks

I searched in the dark parts of the universe, met you in-between the stars first

Found my moon, just before my mind bared a guard burst

My last art work marked the beautiful words that carved purpose

Tried to show you, you aren't worthless

Instead, are worth it

Hoping to reveal to those whats behind curtains

A fine purchase, with a divine surface, the kind version, the one thing that left my mind wordless

[The Downfall]

Though I fell from the sky, overwhelming stressed out

Tried my best to block the mess out, kept being pressed down

My best friend left town, I was thinking less now, then half of me just checked out

Not accepting I was a depressed clown

I kept investing in what I could deem the best route

And still I went down, further beyond just wet clouds

Even the moon could not see me as I went south

And still it reached out, hoping to redirect doubt

But I had fallen with my bent crown

In a distress pout, or at the place my chest drowned

I no longer possessed clout, was no longer a blessed sprout

I had nothing to impress the moon, just burnt respect and whatever was left now

I was out of the moonlight, dreaming of eternal rest now

So I confess, to the moon from which I was obsessed about

I failed to address my progress when I wasn't giving my best out

[Us]

Because my mind was confined, not just by the fine lines drawn to divide us

The lack of prime time inside us showed why we defined crime and lust

Plus we defied our trust, denied our plus one, and became a bind of fuss

I search of whats right and just, in hopes to rewind of when mine was cusp

I aligned my must, grew my vine of luck and climbed until I saw my divine was plush

And these rhymes I brush, like paint, surely do try to bring light to whats

Been on my mind, from dusk to dawn, every line drawn to find whats wrong

Perfectly pictured in my palms, our world written like bygones

And still everyday I'm reminded that this is lifelong

No reason to race through a marathon, we got to make a decision before we act on

Something restrictive, and so I blame the sickness that in both of us existed

For this wicked, twisted, unpredicted situation that hath stricken

Because I want you to feed my addiction, bring my prescription, to relieve the pain inflicted

But I'm so conflicted, I want to be golden when you're the ticket

Its just we both have to be committed to being better than whats depicted

For my love is unrestricted, and if I didn't believe in you I wouldn't have picked you to be more than my statistic.

Toxic to my heart

I thought i was ready to love another girl, but kissing her just didnt feel right.
She was beautiful, but she's not you, I just realized that tonight.
When will i get you out of my head, when will i stop bringing your memories to bed.
I really tried to move on, without you.
When my lips touched hers, i felt like i was being untrue.
But we broke up last year, so why does your memories still appear?

When I saw you down the street the other day.
My lips moved but i didn't know what to say.
Your still beautiful, but your toxic to my heart.
You will keep hurting me until you tear me apart.
What did i do to deserve this kind of love.
I think you broke my heart enough.

The other girl still talks to me, but for some reason i dont feel like i am free.
Your memories keep taunting me.
The other girl has a kind heart, not like yours that tore me apart.
She's been broken before, she knows what it feels like to be hurt.
She's kind, she's friendly, I know she likes me because she flirts.
But i won't go with her unless i get you out of my mind.
I'm not gonna be like you, unkind.
I've got to get you out of my mind.

I WISH

I wish I could terrifically write about you
Like how I've fallen over heels in love with you
Like how my pulses skips beat each time I see you
But this I know that you're indescribable

I wish I could brutally destroy my ego
And tell you everything that my heart whispers
And tell you how everytime I sit near you I live anew
But words just don't flow out in your presence

I wish I could invite you in my small aweful world
Of where I scribble words in your profound beauty
Of where the spilt ink craves to etch your name
But they merely remains a wish among many wishes

I wish I could tell the stars and the moon
To glow for you every single night
To blow you warm kisses in the evening
But this I know that you're the Stardust that shines the brightest

I wish and only wish