VOICES OF A CONFUSED HEART.

The pain never get out of sight,

They left but I never get it right,

Souls I've hurt keep me up awake at night,

God give me the strength hold on tight,

For you know where the fire in my soul ignite,

Wish unconditional love show me the light.

The heart is to pump my blood,

But why at time doest it hurt?

Wish I could do without one,

So that no organ in me could hurt this bad.

 

This mind that fails me,

Melancholic pasts it let me see,

No music that make me sing,

For in my past are bee stings,

Joy to my soul it doesn't bring.

Lovers i hurt at night keep me awake,

Visuals of the same mistakes,

In the dark flashbacks like panic attacks,

For in my souls buried emotions erupts,

Their Ghosts that force me to dance,

To the music of this sad past.

Appologies to my self,

Ignorance and unapologetic pretense,

Even when to them I no longer make sense,

Adorable Memories that become intense,

For this affection I remain useless,

No wages for the man that offer all his energies,

Energy to care repeat less.

In me bares no hate,

Happy in me you could make,

Ever in my heart smiles u bake,

But now my soul bares an empty cake,

The emotions keep my heart at stake,

If ever back forever in my heart you will stay.

This the voices of a confused heart,

Perfect painting of a scribbled art,

The masterpiece that we start,

True that tuff times never last,

Genuine love made of trust,

Now shaken at it delicate part.

Wish I could complete this,

But If this your end I'll leave my readers in suspense,

Will always wait in silence,

For ur Adorable heart so stainless,

For ur happiness is my interest,

I could let you go painless,

I'll always watch out for you my little princess,

Your return I will wait in patience.

Man is not alone

If only we can admit it as humans that we are like candles whose light will never see beneath itself despite its beauty in the dark. So we should know that no matter the carelessness we may adopt and carefulness we may lace, our errors will never be lucid to our ears nor will they be heard to our sights. As the warning of others around us will always be the torch to tread our darkest path and also our rod to part our flooded passages.

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© Jayshuwa

© Jayshuwa

Quote of the day

Life is like the sunrise, 

Each day gives you a new hope and desire, 

May this day you shine so bright,

May you reach more higher, 

Keep smiling on this day, 

Have a wonderful day, 

Good day!

Quote of the Day

If no one told you this today,

you’re so awesome, 

beautiful and deserve everything

 this galaxy can give you.

They said it get worse

before it gets better.

But sometimes,

it can get more worse without getting any better.

It will get better.

The story will change.

Quote of the Day

                      ☯️🧘♎🧘☯️

Just because we forgive someone it doesn't mean what they did was okay. It just means we have empowered ourselves to move on from it.

Jayshuwa©

Conflicted

[The Moon]

You see at this point my heart hurts, things are far worse than I could ever imagine

Trying to figure out what you and I are worth, why does it always feel like we are cursed

I mean the wounds are too deep to have these scars nursed

To bring care, I think of where we started, in the air where Mars lurks

I searched in the dark parts of the universe, met you in-between the stars first

Found my moon, just before my mind bared a guard burst

My last art work marked the beautiful words that carved purpose

Tried to show you, you aren't worthless

Instead, are worth it

Hoping to reveal to those whats behind curtains

A fine purchase, with a divine surface, the kind version, the one thing that left my mind wordless

[The Downfall]

Though I fell from the sky, overwhelming stressed out

Tried my best to block the mess out, kept being pressed down

My best friend left town, I was thinking less now, then half of me just checked out

Not accepting I was a depressed clown

I kept investing in what I could deem the best route

And still I went down, further beyond just wet clouds

Even the moon could not see me as I went south

And still it reached out, hoping to redirect doubt

But I had fallen with my bent crown

In a distress pout, or at the place my chest drowned

I no longer possessed clout, was no longer a blessed sprout

I had nothing to impress the moon, just burnt respect and whatever was left now

I was out of the moonlight, dreaming of eternal rest now

So I confess, to the moon from which I was obsessed about

I failed to address my progress when I wasn't giving my best out

[Us]

Because my mind was confined, not just by the fine lines drawn to divide us

The lack of prime time inside us showed why we defined crime and lust

Plus we defied our trust, denied our plus one, and became a bind of fuss

I search of whats right and just, in hopes to rewind of when mine was cusp

I aligned my must, grew my vine of luck and climbed until I saw my divine was plush

And these rhymes I brush, like paint, surely do try to bring light to whats

Been on my mind, from dusk to dawn, every line drawn to find whats wrong

Perfectly pictured in my palms, our world written like bygones

And still everyday I'm reminded that this is lifelong

No reason to race through a marathon, we got to make a decision before we act on

Something restrictive, and so I blame the sickness that in both of us existed

For this wicked, twisted, unpredicted situation that hath stricken

Because I want you to feed my addiction, bring my prescription, to relieve the pain inflicted

But I'm so conflicted, I want to be golden when you're the ticket

Its just we both have to be committed to being better than whats depicted

For my love is unrestricted, and if I didn't believe in you I wouldn't have picked you to be more than my statistic.

Afraid

As plain as I can say this,I'm afraid
Afraid of what is to come and to be made
I'm a man controlled by many fears
For they are the kind that reduce men to tears

I fear of being lost and hopeless
For I fear losing someone with much closeness
I fear of becoming isolated
For with no society my mind would be violated

I fear what lies in the dark
But only because darkness would tear me apart
I fear the loss of family
For being alone lies no hope for my sanity

I fear of not being a good brother
Because I fear for the soul of our mother
I fear my family being broken
Nothing left but a single token

I fear the coming chaos
For society seems blind at their loss
Most of all I fear losing my father
Afraid he will become my only martyr

It is alright to be afraid,it means we're human
Fear allows us to face it to continue our blooming
For when the day is said and done
We all can turn to watch the setting sun

Jayshuwa