Remembering my Beloved mum on Mother's Day

My dearest Mom, so kind and true,

My heart is heavy, I miss you so much too.

On this Mother's Day, I wish you were here,

To share the love and joy that always brought cheer.

You were caring, always by my side,

Your love and comfort, I could never hide.

You showed me how to be a better man,

And motivated me to do all that I can.

Your laughter was infectious, your jokes so funny,

You always found a way to brighten up my day, even when it was gloomy.

Your hugs and kisses, so warm and tight,

I always knew everything was going to be all right.

You were a woman of faith, your prayers so pure,

You taught me to trust in God, and His Word to endure.

Your love for Jesus shone bright in your heart,

And now, you're with Him, never again to depart.

Though I cannot see you, I feel you near,

Your love is always with me, so crystal clear.

I'll always cherish the memories we shared,

And know that you're always in my heart, forever cared.

So here's to you, my beautiful Mom,

May you rest in peace, in God's loving arms.

Thank you for being the best Mom anyone could ask for,

I love you now and forevermore.

Jayshuwa

Inspiration comes when you not looking

I gave away my curiosity; trusted your stick was leading me right.
Void of any sense of will or desire.
My every thought was the smallest measure of time;
always hours behind reality.
Escalators were taking me to last floor of my deepest thoughts i guess.
But i gave away control, didn't I?
What did i expect to find?
Figured if i can't stand in the truth of faith, i drift in the error of facts.
So I quit dressing myself ever since you showed me the right pants.
With a frozen account, I sure can't shop around.
Regardless! I'm willing to stay out of fashion on your account.

I can't imagine how much weight I lost just by jumping into conclusions;
Only to discover what l thought were prerequisites were just rewards.
Why was I busy hammering when I didn't know the shape you had designed?
You were always there making sure the right heaven match-sticks.
So I will trust you for a spark no matter how long it takes for a burn.
For now let the thought of tomorrow's heat melt the little ice that remains between you and me.
And when I'm out of inspiration; I will just stop looking.
The only difference is this time you are my eyes;
that's why I'm confident of the walk

_Jayshuwa_

Le chaos

For as long as I can remember, 

I never knew how to handle my emotions

Whenever things didnt work my way, 

I've always been the first to push the blame

Because i've never seen my inner-self through a mirror

Reflecting a despicable person

Not quite like the yellow, cylindrical minions from "Despicable Me"

I wasn't cute, able to sing nor any of their positive traits

And despite all that,

I was able to feel your genuine love

I knew we wouldn't last forever

And despite priming myself for this day

It breaks my heart still,

Thinking how I used to be yours

But now it all just seems so long ago

Like humans' fueled fascination over Lost Atlantis

I still recall that day,

You left me with an open door

Yet I still feel 

Imprisoned with no key to escape

The all-consuming depths of my aloneness

Is now my only company

As I wait solemnly for the day

I hear from you again

And I hope,

Maybe one day, we'll be better versions

Maybe one day I will be able to look at you, 

Without feeling pain

Maybe one day you'll see my worth

Maybe one day you'll see i've always been there for you

But until then,

I am your mess and you are my chaos!