Le chaos

For as long as I can remember, 

I never knew how to handle my emotions

Whenever things didnt work my way, 

I've always been the first to push the blame

Because i've never seen my inner-self through a mirror

Reflecting a despicable person

Not quite like the yellow, cylindrical minions from "Despicable Me"

I wasn't cute, able to sing nor any of their positive traits

And despite all that,

I was able to feel your genuine love

I knew we wouldn't last forever

And despite priming myself for this day

It breaks my heart still,

Thinking how I used to be yours

But now it all just seems so long ago

Like humans' fueled fascination over Lost Atlantis

I still recall that day,

You left me with an open door

Yet I still feel 

Imprisoned with no key to escape

The all-consuming depths of my aloneness

Is now my only company

As I wait solemnly for the day

I hear from you again

And I hope,

Maybe one day, we'll be better versions

Maybe one day I will be able to look at you, 

Without feeling pain

Maybe one day you'll see my worth

Maybe one day you'll see i've always been there for you

But until then,

I am your mess and you are my chaos!

I WISH

I wish I could terrifically write about you
Like how I've fallen over heels in love with you
Like how my pulses skips beat each time I see you
But this I know that you're indescribable

I wish I could brutally destroy my ego
And tell you everything that my heart whispers
And tell you how everytime I sit near you I live anew
But words just don't flow out in your presence

I wish I could invite you in my small aweful world
Of where I scribble words in your profound beauty
Of where the spilt ink craves to etch your name
But they merely remains a wish among many wishes

I wish I could tell the stars and the moon
To glow for you every single night
To blow you warm kisses in the evening
But this I know that you're the Stardust that shines the brightest

I wish and only wish