Once a Friend, Now a Stranger

You are my confidant

And I am your constant

You are my cheerer

And I am your supporter

We are inseparable

We make things able

We laugh all day

We cry all night

Until one day

I thought it was just a play

You're no longer my confidant

And I'm no longer your constant

It happened so quick

We're both not prepared

We cannot stand being together

Looking away from each other

I wonder what went wrong

Why it was so easy for you to let go

Why didn't you hold on?

Why can't you tell me?

We used to be each others ally

But why did we become strangers so quickly?

Is it our choice?

Or is it directly Gods plan?

Ruin

Take heed lest you fall into the tempting hands of ruin she sighs, gives a shrilling cry of longing and abuse Drawn to her promised twists you seek the need that she can give you smile, drunk in lust dreaming that you have won Trapped in her piercing warmth you huff and puff to wrench free a victory, we rejoice when you do but pieces of you stay, bleeding and torn Lost in the strength of spirits and wines you yearn and yearn to feel divine sad mournful pieces come away as you welcome her embrace, yet again.

Anxiety

I feel like I am not real

I cannot heal

I try to hold everything back

But all the things I lack

Add to the weight on my chest 

Making me unable to rest

So I cannot breathe while I cry

How am I even getting by?

I lie in bed for hours before I can rest peacefully

How can I change me

To make myself better

Before I write my last letter? 

I crack under the pressure until I break

Am I even awake? 

Everything feels like a bad dream 

But I cannot wake up and scream 

I'm so afraid of me

I can't see clearly 

I can barely stand 

Because I don't like who I am

I don't know why I'm unable to change 

It seems so strange 

Everyone else can change. 

So why do I stay the same?